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About lianne cawood

I am a woman, a daughter, a wife, a mother and a friend. I am married to B and have two wonderful daughters Kate and Jem. I have some new worlds to explore, those of being a cancer survivor, an immigrant, and a stay at home mom. I still struggle to say all of those words, let alone accept them. I have so much to be thankful for, yet I don't always see it. None of us do. So, inspired by Hailey of 365Grateful I started this blog. The goal, to find one thing every day to be grateful for. Not always the obvious. But sometimes. And to write about it. To put myself out there. And now it has become more. Not sure what yet, but I'll let you know when I know.

great expectations

I’m really starting to wonder if maybe it’s me. I seem to have fallen out with a friend, two estate agents, our conveyancing attorney, our immigration agent and our local bank manager. Most of them because they just don’t seem to do what they say they’re going to. Maybe it’s my tone? B suggested that whilst he absolutely agrees with the content of my oh so efficiently worded emails, he just wonders if maybe the quite short sentences which clearly signal my irritation, the clipped I would appreciate your response at your earliest convenience and my obvious exclusion of kind regards, is maybe not the way to go. He says it very gently because I know he can feel the menopausal embers just waiting for something to ignite them. Damn. Is it me? The thing is though, despite my slight, ahem, volatility I do struggle with people who don’t do what they say they’re going to do. Maybe my expectations are too high. But then really how can they be when I’m only expecting people to do what they say they’re going to do. And I know life intervenes and often despite our best intentions we can’t do the things we said we would.  But then I just wish people would own that. Would say that. And wouldn’t try to duck and dive. And make excuses. And lay blame. And if they do that I promise I’ll work on my tone. I will. Or am I maybe expecting too much again?

three hundred and nine

 

Not sure if it’s as a result of  being the youngest of six kids, or just a boy thing, but B simply cannot put his shoes away. Where he takes them off there they stay. It pisses me off. But today I was so grateful for those boots in the middle of the lounge. We have missed them.

three hundred and seven

Today has been a beautiful gift, a gentle day, lovely bonding moments with Kate, a delicious catch up nap, an afternoon on the couch with a new book and especially a call from the sellers agent very keen to do what is necessary to resurrect our contract on the house. So not only am I grateful for a perfect day after the night before, but also for a husband who is always right.

three hundred and six

16 November. I am grateful for a distracting girls night out. A welcome distraction because B and I decided to walk away from the house purchase due to an impasse on various issues. So I am grateful for a fun end to a not fun day. For meeting new friends and getting to know old friends better. For sharing and for perspective. And for gratitude at being reminded once again how blessed I am.

three hundred and five

 

I am grateful for a morning steeped in creativity. I never realised quite how much I had missed discussions about concepts, lighting, the idea, cropping, how less is so often more or quite how much I had missed critiquing the work of others. Or how good I am at it. Critiquing others I mean. Not so sure I like being on the receiving end though.

three hundred and four

 

I am grateful for two sweet, kind, self motivated and sometimes bloody cheeky daughters. I love how they just get on with what needs to be done, and am very grateful it is acknowledged. I can’t pretend I wasn’t very proud tonight. You go girls.

three hundred and two

 

I am grateful for the unexpected pics I find on my phone, the little gifts from my girls. A little smile at the discovery and for that fraction of a second nothing else exists. Just love.