So I went and saw my oncologist last week for another lets see how things are going visit. I’m liking her a tad less every visit. It’s that emotionally unavailable bit. And I get it. But I just need her to see me. Me. Not a cancer patient. Anyhooo I am trundling along, my bloodwork was good, my fatigue is lessening, I’m starting to make peace with and accept the side effects of the Aromasin. It just becomes your new normal. I have changed my mood stabilising meds, see what I did there, and psychobitch seems to be making fewer appearances, although my family might disagree. I am delaying decisions re future treatment until next year. 2016 has done enough. I am finally getting at fifty that life is a series of commas. There are no full stops. And especially with cancer. It is not over. It never was over. I will never be able to say with certainty I am cancer free. So what am I you ask? I am officially in remission, which is defined as ‘a temporary diminution of the severity of disease or pain’. Yay me. No seriously. It’s as good as it gets. There is no evidence of disease. For now. I am feeling more like me than I have in a very long time, psychobitch and my inabilty to remember anything vaguely important aside. But there is the reality of the ‘for now’. And all that does is remind me, and you I fucking hope, that it is all bloody temporary, the good and the bad. It will all pass. So celebrate every little good and seek it out, see it, and deal with the bad with as much grace and dignity as you can muster, because it is just a comma. Not a period. Period.
grace and dignity
a life to be grateful for
grace and dignity 
I’m so glad I read that today Leanne. You’re a powerful writer and woman. I’m so pleased for your news.
Thanks for this. Think i went into hiding after writing it hence never saw your comment xx
That was beautifully written and so so true. Just have to stop & breathe every now & again & remember that ❤️
Love to you xxx
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Siobhan Goodwin You are so clever with words! 💖
Lianne Cawood Shucks you. Not really but thanks 😘
Susie Pitts Moving forward. This is the good news start to our day. Xx
Lianne Cawood And what a day it was ❤
Lynn Loopuyt Barker ♡. Period
Lianne Cawood ♡ period
Nadja O’Keeffe Okay – (Y) – I just need to send you a ‘high five’ – You have such strength and determination and it’s because of this that you are a winner! We all live day to day – I think it’s an instinctive thing in us all! Just some are made more aware of it than others! So today I raise my glass of bubbles and say to you – GIRL YOU ROCK! (Y) Sending Love and hugs to that gorgeous psychobitch ( 😉 ) in Noosa – PERIOD! ❤ #FuckCancer #SoMuchLoveForYou #YouRock ❤ xxxxxx
Lianne Cawood You rock Nads. Actually we all rock! ❤❤
Nadja O'Keeffe Lianne Cawood Abso-BLOODY-lutely 😉 Love ya ❤ ❤ (Y) (Y)
Megan Clausen You are awesome. Full stop. ❤❤❤❤❤
Lianne Cawood Flawsome maybe? Love ya Megs. Full stop. ❤❤❤
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Karin Dunkin It might be a comma but its a good one. Good news and a little relief for my heart and yours. Love you!
Lianne Cawood Love you Karin Amanda. Period ♡
Claire Peters I love that word remission 😘😘
Lianne Cawood Tbh Clairabelle I’m learning to. Love to you 😘
Kerry Solomon As you words often do, I’m brought to tears. Thank you for reminding us how transient and temporary everything is. Yes to seeking out the good! Yes to maximising and celebrating the positive! Yes to you being in remission! Long may it last beautiful Lianne. And maybe your oncologist doesn’t see you, but we all do. And we salute you. And we admire you. And we adore you. xxxx
Lianne Cawood And I you K. ❤
Gillian Freimond Rightford Happy news. And good advice. 🍾🍾💕
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Owen Leed Love, love, love,
Lianne Cawood Love back, (I saw what you did there 😉),
Owen Leed Lianne Cawood 😘😘
Karen Saville Smiley face smiley face kiss kiss
Lianne Cawood 😘😘
Heather Tristan Remission is good! Psychobitch sometimes is too 😀
Lianne Cawood I hear ya!!!!
Theresa Milne It’s all good…. No need to be hung up on a destination. It’s a series of twisted turns and hills and dips. Sounds like you’re refuelled and ready. Now grab some snacks, turn the music up loud and make it a holiday to remember. Lots of love x
Lianne Cawood Love to you T. The engines are revving. ❤
Gillian Smith Love you brave lady.💜💜
Lianne Cawood Love you back Gilly. ❤
Janine Daniels Look its our old friend impermanence again. Such a bugger of a lesson. Love you angel ❤❤
Lianne Cawood Shit man, what’s it gonna take for us to learn??? Love you long time my friend ❤❤❤
Janine Daniels And I you my friend. Lots ! 😘😘
Jane Sims Lianne, I love how you write. I know that it is your journey, but, just so you know, I have a friend who was given a 20% chance of surviving a rampant breast cancer, 18 years ago…… When I met her, I remember her saying how the treatment sucked and that if she had known how shit it was she would not have started it, but, here she is today. Just saying. I know that you are probably rolling your eyes thinking I have heard all this before, but you have done fucking well. It is okay to be an uber-super-fucking-psycho-bitch sometimes, because on the other side of the pendulim that swings in all of us you are the uber-super-fabulous-wonderful-special-person too. Xxxx
Lianne Cawood I’m so not rolling my eyes, rather wiping them at this beautiful acknowledgment of me and of all of us. Thank you Jane and much much love to you ❤
Geraldine Hartley So life is frail and it is fleeting, during this earthly existence anyway! BUT it is not an emergency that needs to be lived at the pace of such – this time of year I find is the worst for emergency speed (yuck!) I just wanted to say thank you for good news today, for celebrating good news and for reminding us all to live our stories in commas I believe you are spot on, the good, the bad, the ugly…it shall all pass. In the meantime today can I say I’m grateful for you and your words of wisdom, of truth and transparency. Period.
Lianne Cawood This too shall pass. Such beautiful words G. Love and gratitude to you. Period ❤❤
Colin Templeton Love to you and your family 💕💕💕
Melinda Kerr 💕💕💜