but

I wrote an earlier post which I deleted because I was angry when I wrote it. I guess the only message I really wanted to convey (but it was lost in the rant), is be kind.  This again. Think before you speak. Especially to young women whose mothers have just been diagnosed with recurrent breast cancer. Don’t be ignorant. And don’t assume I am. Or they are. It’s truly unfortunate that they aren’t. But it’s condescending to assume they are.

But. This post is a good news one. Goodish. Preliminary PETscan (I’ll write it in capitals because I don’t mind it having power today) results show no areas of concern elsewhere in my body. But. There is now evidence of what appears to be an ‘internal mammary lymph node mestasteses’ in my right breast. Whaaaat? Anyway, now I have to have another fine needle biopsy and CT scan early next week to check it out. Then armed with all this fucking knowledge, the medical oncologist will decide what next. With me of course. But right now, it’s mostly good news. Just with a damn but.

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    Ashleigh Udal, Christal Ann Schneider and 43 others

    Samantha Yates Schroeder SiGhH.. People always think they know better… I have learnt to rather say nothing and just try to offer silent support.. It’s horrible feeling helpless & hard to try not to FIX.. 🙏 I just hope that it’s the right thing 🙏 always here for you my friend 😘
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · April 1 at 7:16pm · Edited
    Lianne Cawood Love you Sam … please never feel you need to be silent. Your love for us means you could never ever say anything hurtful ❤️❤️❤️
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 4:16pm
    Samantha Yates Schroeder thank-you my friend 🙏 love you 😘
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 6:24pm
    Lianne Cawood 😘
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 9:57pm

    Corrie Medhurst BUT! Shit word, fuck but!!! Also fuck mestasteses!!! Love you warrior woman! Xxxxxxxx
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · April 1 at 7:13pm
    Lianne Cawood Fuck but agree!!! Next week there will be no but!!!!! 🙏🏻❤️
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    Carolien Bosman ❤️
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Kate Cawood 💗💗💗
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · April 1 at 7:39pm
    Lianne Cawood 😉❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 4:17pm

    Megan Clausen Rage as much and as freely as you want, you and Kate and Jemma. You are warrior women, all of you. Fuck cancer. And ignorance. You’ll conquer them both. 💕💕💕
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 1 at 7:41pm

    Lianne Cawood With so many beautiful and empathetic friends how can we not. As one such beautiful friend said … “Why do people think (a) that they know more than the entire medical community and (b) that they have the right to issue judgmental commentary via a child. I wonder how she’d respond if she knew the hurt her words caused … As if you all weren’t dealing with enough.” That’s what I meant to say!! 😂 love you Megs xxx
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 4:23pm

    Siobhan Goodwin 🍰 Cake! Cake and chocolate my friend x Kia Kaha (Maori for “Stay strong”)
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · April 1 at 7:43pm
    Lianne Cawood Had both today!!! 😘
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    Adrienne Hoberman 💜💜💜
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 1 at 7:48pm
    Lianne Cawood 😘
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    Susie Pitts As always I read your Grace And Dignity with a slightly nervous, always positive passion. Nonna is now here, you’ll have to come over and meet her. Xxx
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · April 1 at 7:53pm
    Lianne Cawood Love you for that Suze. Exactly how I feel. 😘 And I’d love to meet her xxxx
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 4:25pm
    Susie Pitts When you are feeling like it just let me know xx
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 8:55pm

    Janette Webb Great for the good news !!! Fukkin But !!!! ××××××
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 1 at 7:57pm
    Lianne Cawood It is hey!!? Fuck that but 😂❤️
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 4:26pm
    Ahimsamurti Nicole Kretzschmar Hahaha that’s very funny L
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 7:24pm
    Lianne Cawood Hahahaha only just realised. Was not intentional. Wasn’t. Really it wasn’t 😂
    Like · Reply · 2 · April 2 at 9:58pm
    Lynn Loopuyt Barker 😂😂
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 3 at 3:16am
    Lianne Cawood it really wasn’t. 😂
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 3 at 7:41am

    Ilona Schreuder Proud of you my friend and love you lots💋❤️
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 1 at 8:00pm
    Lianne Cawood ❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 4:26pm

    Leigh Thomas Hey Beautiful Lady…..that’s really good news..on the one hand so lets not let the ‘other hand’ stop or distract for now – pretty damn good news, thanks for sharing sweet…..Luv ya madly 💌🌹
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 1 at 8:57pm
    Lianne Cawood Agree with you my sweet Leigh! Really good news and i’m focusing on that today ❤️❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 4:27pm

    Leona Breitenbach 💝💝💝
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 1 at 10:25pm
    Lianne Cawood 💕
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    Lara Killian 🍰🍮🍩🍫🍦🍭🍪🍬 and then some 🍾🍸🍷🍻 and then repeat!!!
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 1 at 10:36pm
    Lianne Cawood Had most of the above the last two days! And i’m not kidding 😈 Love you Lara ❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 4:28pm

    Janine Allem As always, beautifully expressed.
    I pray you will stay strong and true and I know that this too shall pass.
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · April 2 at 5:26am
    Lianne Cawood Thank you janineallem. This all helps me stay strong. And that is my next tattoo. Seriously ❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 4:29pm

    Claire Peters So much love to you Lianne. And special thoughts to Kate and Jemma 💗
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 6:52am
    Lianne Cawood Thank you Clairabelle ❤️
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    Janine Hunter ❤️
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Theresa Milne Little steps….. every bit of promising news takes you closer to where you want to be…. sending love and support xx
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 11:32am
    Lianne Cawood Little steps are all that there are hey? And suddenly you realise how far you’ve come. Love back T ❤️
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 4:30pm

    Belinda Shea 💖💖💖 to you and yor family
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 3:04pm
    Lianne Cawood Thanks B ❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 4:30pm

    Nonina Ferreira All will be well even with the but 😉 sending u loads of healing light beautiful Lianne 🙌🏻🙌🏻 😘
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 4:42pm
    Lianne Cawood Thanks Noni. Means everything ❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 9:59pm

    Yvette Puchert I waited to read this. I was waiting for the right time…without 25 kids and parents around me. I was also a little scared. I posted the “better word than fuck” for you. I read your beautiful post and am so happy it hasn’t spread elsewhere!!!!!!👍🏻😊👍🏻😊 I pray the but is a small one in this whole sea of unknowing. I am not going to tell you how amazing you are…you know how I feel about you.😌 But, I do wish I was there..shouting, venting, laughing, drinking vino and ultimately finding a stronger words for Fuck! If I could be there, I would.💜🌷💜🌷💜🌷💜
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · April 2 at 5:17pm
    Lianne Cawood Oh my Y. I knew you did and I loved it. My word is an amalgamation of three that Janine Allem might relate to 😉. Thank you for everything you have said but mostly for just being there. I wish you were here too more than you can imagine but just knowing you are there eases me. But. Fuck I could do with some serious shouting venting drinking laughing with you ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 10:06pm
    Janine Daniels I think I know that word too 😉. Love you all enormously 💋💋💋💋
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · April 2 at 10:28pm
    Janine Allem Oh that word!
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · April 4 at 7:21am
    Lianne Cawood I dare you.
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 5 at 6:49am

    Tamara Duran Yes my friend… Rant away.. It gives us all allowance and acceptance to just be. Do not delete please it makes us all get that bit closer to authenticity… Fuck we all know that’s what this world craves. Authentic humans. Life is. It is what it is and your posts make us accept we are just human.” Love you Tam ❤️
    Unlike · Reply · 3 · April 2 at 5:33pm
    Lianne Cawood You know I love everything you have said here. Authenticity is probably the aspiration I hold most dear. We are just human. Trying our best to be our most authentic selves. Love you Tam for seeing it in me. And humbled by it. Love you back ❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 10:09pm

    Tamara Duran Big fucking steps.
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 5:34pm

    Heather McNeice So glad to hear your good news and may next week bring more of the same xx
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 6:13pm
    Lianne Cawood Thanks H. It will. I am over buts. 😏❤️
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 10:11pm

    Chiquita King I didn’t realise how much I disliked the word ‘but’ … Love you my friend and all that you are 💗
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · April 2 at 9:04pm
    Lianne Cawood 😂😂 you and me both Chiqs!!! And I you and all that you are my very special friend ❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 10:12pm

    Desiree McLeod Johnson My Lianne, my strong beautiful woman! I’m so happy with the good news and we remain in faith regarding the ‘but’! Continue just being you and rant all you want. No one has a right to judge but rather be there and support you as a loving friend through this journey! Wish I was across the way to pop in and give you a hug ….. know how much I hate fucking cancer!!!! Strength always my precious!! ❤
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 10:34pm

    Dani Hynes xxxxxxxxxxxxx ❤️
    Like · Reply · April 2 at 11:55pm

    Lynn Loopuyt Barker ❤️ ….. but …. still pissed you have to go through this 😡❤️❤️❤️💜💜
    Like · Reply · April 3 at 3:15am

    Kerry Solomon Oh Lianne, I’m so sorry somebody said something hurtful to one of your girls. God that would make me so fucking cross 😡 I just don’t get people sometimes. And how thoughtless they can be. It’s a good reminder that the shit that comes out people’s mouths is a reflection of them, not us. As for the but… Fuck. It’s so not what you wanted to hear. However I’m absolutely delighted that there’s no areas of concern elsewhere in your body!!! 💃💃💃 That is truly great news! I’ll be sending positive thoughts for your biopsy and CT scan next week. No more buts, thank you very much! 😘😘
    Like · Reply · April 3 at 6:11am

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