I sobbed this morning. Poor B, sitting in Sydney, could hardly hear the words between the gulps. And I have no real idea why. I’m feeling anxious. Not sleeping well. A little out of control and not in a good way. Very emotional. Very demotivated. And to be honest a little lost. I sat on my bench, regrouped a bit, got a little perspective and carried on. And that’s just life. Its not always a bed of roses, even when it is. I know how much I have, how much I’ve learnt and gained, and I am so filled with gratitude for everything and everyone in my life, but today I got lost in all I’ve lost. It frightened me how easy it is to do. But I had to write my grateful for yesterday. I had read about how a gratitude practice can open your heart and rewire your brain. It does. It really does.

3 thoughts on “lost

  1. Some times we all get lost in what we’ve lost. I loved your post… I stumbled across it on the SCAR project post I re-blogged. Hope you don’t mind. 😀

  2. From facebook

    Corrie Medhurst and Theresa Milne like this.

    Janette Webb Hope u feeling better x x x
    September 13 at 12:01pm · Like

    Kerry Solomon My Yoga teacher always says happiness/sadness (and any other opposing emotions) are 2 sides of the same coin, and you cannot have one without the other. It’s impossible to feel happy and in control every day. All we can do is honour ourselves and our emotions on the days we do feel lost. It’s okay to feel that way. And how would we recognise when we feel good if we never felt bad. You need the one to know what the other feels like. But what you are doing, with your gratitude posts, is wonderful, and I thank you Lianne, because not only does it lift you up, it lifts me up too.
    September 13 at 12:57pm · like · 3

    Nicola Heppell Xxx
    September 13 at 1:09pm via mobile · like · 1

    Michelle Taylor A big hug from B will put you back on track….xx
    September 13 at 1:20pm via mobile · like · 1

    Heather McNeice Sending you lots of love Lianne xx
    September 13 at 1:20pm · like · 1

    Kim Logan A big electronic hug from me. It happens to all of us and I love that you can be so honest about it xx
    September 13 at 1:59pm · like · 1

    Leanne Angel Braithwaite You ok? Xxx
    September 13 at 2:41pm via mobile · like · 1

    Lianne Cawood You are all sweet … thank you ….and as you put it Kerry and you Kim … none of us are ok everyday.Today this is how I felt. I am grateful I could voice it. I feel so much better for it. And yes I’m ok. R u?? Mwah to all of you xxx
    September 13 at 3:59pm · Like · 1

    Lianne Cawood … meant to add … how coincidentally relevant …. today I think is R U OK day? In oz? Maybe not/
    September 13 at 4:02pm · Like · 2

    Samantha Yates Schroeder Glad u r feeling better… X please please see Greg more often… Please xxx
    September 13 at 6:08pm via mobile · Like

    Lisa Fourie Awe big hugz … It’s ok to feel like this … Tomorrow will be perfect xo
    September 13 at 7:52pm via mobile · Like

    Yvette Puchert Ah no, noo!!! The best thing when you’re feeling out of control is to get a friend that’s feeling more out of control….and that’s me. You’ll feel a whole lot better. Mwah. It’s great to be grateful but it’s also great to just be what you’re feeling!!!
    September 14 at 7:33pm · like · 1

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