B shaved my head this morning. Not much can beat that for a truly intimate, I see you moment. You see nothing in life is ever perfect. Your hair doesn’t fall out neatly all at once. Each chemo session ravages you a little more. Bit by bit. But it also allows you a semblance of control. Of ownership. I have huge bald spots. I would look like coco the clown on a really bad day if what still remains grew. Or something from a horror movie. Actually I’ve always hated clowns. Anyway. How strange our new normal is. Yet how beautiful. The girls wander past the bathroom. Not even pausing, just smiling. It is what it is. We do what we must. Another 21 days are nearly done, which means it’s chemo this week again. Damn time rolls around fucking fast. Feeling less vulnerable, but still prickly. Just trepidation I think at what this week holds. And sets off. And at my fragility. It slowly breaks you down. Bit by bit. Thank fuck I’m halfway. It really is all up from here. Time for some red lippy methinks.
grace and dignity 
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Shelley Hopkins Hope you get to see your humorous nurse this week – good luck Li x
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Lianne Cawood Me too 😈
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Susie Pitts Half way, over the hump. It’s only going to be better from here. xxx
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Lianne Cawood Amazing what red lipstick does girls 💋
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Karen Bruns I’m a believer
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Corynne James Big hugs girlfriend. Xx man so proud of you girl love your honesty and realism. Not even this can change you. That is what warms my heart. Your nearly done now. Start counting down the days to having less to think about. You’ve got this. Xx #fuckcancer
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Michelle Sacks You write with such honesty and beauty you are with me everyday xx
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Lisa Fourie You rock the red lippy 💞😘
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Geraldine Hartley I’ve also always hated clowns since a little girl! Halfway ….you’ve got this ❤️
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