prickly

I’m a bit fragile at the moment. Definitely feeling a little vulnerable. And a bit prickly. I’ve noticed it by having to take a deep breath as I get out my car, or sending Jem into Coles so I don’t have to go, or yesterday when I met my beautiful friends for coffee. I texted to make sure someone was there so I didn’t need to walk in alone. And bald. Yip it’s the bald thing. I know it’s a choice (well yes and no because whilst I hate the wigs, beanies, caps and scarfs all irritate my head too) but shooweee sometimes I just can’t rock it. I suspect it might be due to the allergy I picked up resulting in big swollen red eyes too. Bald head I can do. Bald head and fanny eyes is just too much to ask of anyone. Anyway the eyes are better but a little fragility was left. And sitting having coffee with my friends, a lady I know came over and chatted to us all, and didn’t say anything about me sitting there bald. And we were discussing her new hairstyle, which made it all even more awkward. I got a bit prickly about it afterwards, especially when my friends defended her by saying she probably didn’t know what to say or how to to say it, or whether I would want it to be acknowledged.  And I get that. I do.  But I really don’t want to be the elephant in the room. The fact that I am out there in the public domain, bald, naked, please acknowledge it. And me. I promise it’s harder for me. I can’t walk away. And it makes me feel better to be seen. Really seen.

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    Christal Ann Schneider, Tracey Benson Hunt and 36 others

    Corrie Medhurst Prickly, vulnerable, fragile, strong, loving, honest and feisty! Love all the things that make you, you! You may not have felt it but even with the puffy eyes, you rocked that bald head!!! BPS xxxx
    Unlike · Reply · 3 · June 2 at 10:23am
    Lianne Cawood Love you Medhurst. BPS xxxxx
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    Tamara Duran I love you dude ❤️
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Jo Sutton You would ask because there are no secrets for you but not everyone will react the same as you. Neither is right or wrong just different. It’s not to judge ijust accept. You could have a bald head, red eyes, acne, chicken pox etc etc and you’d still be you. And I know you would never treat anyone different because of how they look. Whethe you like it or not you look gorgeous because your you x
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · June 2 at 10:25am
    Lianne Cawood Awww thanks you. I’m really not judging just feeling vulnerable. I get it. I really do. 😘
    Like · Reply · 1 · June 3 at 6:34am

    Kate Cawood ❤️❤️❤️
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Lynn Loopuyt Barker ❤️
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Shelley Hopkins It’s like the ad on tv at the moment advertising the latest gossip magazine about a nurse with breast cancer and helping other chemo patients out and nek minut the next page shows you all the lush hairstyles for the winter season!?!!?! WTF people??? #fuckcancer #cancerisacunt 🖕
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · June 2 at 2:11pm
    Lianne Cawood WTF exactly. ❤️
    Like · Reply · June 3 at 6:35am

    Yvette Puchert Totally understandable….on the one hand you want to fly under the radar and by the same token want people to acknowledge who you are now…bald, undergoing chemo and prickly!😊😊🙏🏻😊 Love that you are speaking your truth, love the baldness, love your honesty…missing you too much…and, if people don’t understand or acknowledge you, it’s their stuff… don’t take it on board…you have enough stuff to deal with…🌹🌹🌹 Hope you have an awesome day Ms Cawood…thinking of you all time..🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻😘😘😘🦄🦄🦄
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · June 2 at 2:35pm
    Lianne Cawood Love you Y for getting the confusion that is me right now 😂! Today is a better day. Onwards and upwards ❤️
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    Samantha Raggett ❤️
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Chiquita King I see you. I see your bald head. I see your fragility. I see your vulnerability. I see your bravery. I see your strength. I see your contribution has not waned. I see your importance has grown. I see my love for you steadfast. I see my admiration for you lift exponentially day by day. I see you. And I love you. I will acknowledge it all when I see you in person! Soon. I love you
    Unlike · Reply · 3 · June 2 at 3:34pm
    Lianne Cawood I know you do and it means the world to me. ❤️
    Like · Reply · June 3 at 6:38am

    Shea Albert Lianne!! There’s no consolation. But here’s a Shakespeare quote my friend mike Hetns gave me, I put itt on my noticeboard at SPL:
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · June 2 at 3:59pm
    Lianne Cawood Love the picture this brought to mind 😘
    Like · Reply · June 3 at 6:38am

    Shea Albert ‘Who can say more than this rich praise, that you alone are you.’ xxxxx
    Unlike · Reply · 4 · June 2 at 4:01pm
    Lianne Cawood Beautiful. xx
    Like · Reply · June 3 at 6:39am

    Heather McNeice None of it is easy. Stay strong xx
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · June 2 at 5:53pm
    Lianne Cawood 😘
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    Lara Good Love your honesty, your strength, your attitude. You soooo have this FUCK CANCER down pat. Sending warm hugs on this cool winter’s day xx
    Unlike · Reply · 3 · June 2 at 6:15pm
    Lianne Cawood 😘
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️ to you all.
    Like · Reply · 2 · June 2 at 6:28pm

    Colin Templeton Hang in there 😘
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · June 2 at 7:02pm

    Megan Clausen Ah baby. We see you. With your bald head and rheumy eyes. And your vulnerability and your boredom. And your fuck cancer. Your courage, your beauty, your strength, your honesty, your wisdom. We see it all. Be as fucking prickly as you want or need to be. In my heart and thoughts always brave girl. 🙂
    Unlike · Reply · 7 · June 2 at 7:10pm
    Lianne Cawood Ah Megs. Thank you. Feeling less prickly today thank fuck. ❤️
    Like · Reply · 1 · June 3 at 6:41am

    Louise Fletcher ❤️
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Anna Macklin I see you …
    Bald and just so divinely human ❤️❤️❤️
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · June 2 at 7:20pm

    Theresa Milne It’s understandable. I hear you xx
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · June 2 at 8:04pm

    Karen Bruns I’m with Migraine C. there. Just want to add a small request that you be immensely kind to yourself, please. Lorts of love, HRH
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · June 2 at 8:12pm · Edited
    Lianne Cawood Love you madame. And will do. ❤️
    Like · Reply · 1 · June 3 at 6:42am
    Karen Bruns 💝 back at you
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    Lisa Fourie Sending you love and hugs xo 💞
    Like · Reply · June 2 at 9:13pm

    Karen Saville I remember bumping into you and your girls the last time I saw you in Lonehill and you had lost all your hair. Of course I didn’t mention the bald head. And of course you probably thought that I was awkward. What I was actually thinking was, jeepers does this woman ever manage to look shit? She’s even properly beautiful without her hair. Like, better than Sinead in the 90s xxx
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · June 3 at 5:02am
    Lianne Cawood Ahh Karen, I would never have thought you were awkward, I would have thought this is awkward, should I say something, would that make it worse etc etc etc. 😂 Thank you for those beautiful words. Next time, dammit there will not be one, tell me. ❤️
    Like · Reply · June 3 at 6:44am

    Kerry Solomon The first time I remember seeing you was outside Dick and Lesley’s house. You were bald. And you were beautiful. This is how it played out in my head: “My God she’s beautiful. Who looks beautiful bald? Not many people! Certainly I wouldn’t. But she does. Wow!” I didn’t know you then. I didn’t know your story. All I remember about you is your wide smile and your unbelievable beauty. I don’t know if I ever would have commented or asked about your baldness. I do know I would never have spoken about my new hairstyle 😉 And I do understand the need to be seen, to be acknowledged, no matter how uncomfortable that may be. This journey is going to have you feeling prickly, vulnerable and fragile on some days, and strong, invincible, untouchable on others. Thank you for sharing all sides. I see you, and I applaud you. One day your book is going to help so many people around the world who have cancer. And their families. And their friends I’m convinced of it. xxxx
    Like · Reply · 4 · June 3 at 2:45pm · Edited
    Lianne Cawood Missed this and love you for it K xxxxxxx
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