cocoon

I have to admit I lost the plot a little yesterday. And not because the news is bad but because the news is incomplete. And how could I have forgotten. There is nothing finite about this. We can only deal with each bit of information as it presents itself with care and determination. Well yesterday was a fuck that, what does that mean kind of day. Not much dignity around. Today is a little better. So. It appears I have invasive papillary carcinoma. The word that threw me was invasive. Not what you want on your path report. Actually what you really don’t want is a path report. Anyway. My kind brilliant surgeon is quietly confident he got it all and with safe margins. And I like him. But that damn word again. Invasive. I so wish it was that’s that. Carry on juicing, being positive and eating raw food and we’ll see you next year. Oh and sorry for the divot in your armpit.  Okay so maybe today isn’t really a better day. Anyway. Now it’s over to oncology. Apparently I am a little of an enigma third time round. You’re kidding right. So my case will be discussed on Tuesday at a round table with all these brilliant oncological minds and best route foreward discussed. Whilst they do that I have to have a pet scan to see if there is any indication of invasiveness. Any need for more surgery. But my kind brilliant surgeon is quietly confident there won’t be. And I like him. And his gentle positivity. So I’ll hold onto that and retreat into my cocoon for today. Safe in the knowledge once we have all opinions I will make the best decision for me. Because only I can. And that tomorrow I’ll be in a better mood.

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9 thoughts on “cocoon

  1. Leanne, it has been so many years and somehow it is now that I follow your journey. I can only admire your courage and will to fight. Not having ever been to the place where your are at right now, all I can do give is add my support to your courageous fight.

  2. Thinking of you and feeling confident that you are going to be better than okay!👊🏼☀️💐 I know it’s easy for me to say this being on the opposite side of the planet and not living in your shoes, but Li, I have this incredible feeling, and you can call it faith, knowing, peace, (whatever you want to call it) – that you’re okay. I was brushing my teeth last night and realised that you hadn’t posted on FB what your results were! Normally I’d panic and think the worst – but I didn’t. 👼🏼💫 I know that you are protected and this ‘invasion’ was caught in the nick of time! 🏹👊🏼☀️ Your love, light and laughter (that lights up every corner of the planet) is more powerful than you’ll ever know! Your beauty (inside and out) is your grace and our privilege for us all to share (even if it’s only on FB😉) and see! You have strength and courage, and I thank you for bring the person you are! 🐬✨🌺☀️ Have a Blessed Easter. Today is the first day of the rest of your life 💕✨💐🌺❤️ Sending you love, light and MASSIVE 👼🏼healing! Xxxx 💕💕💕❤️❤️❤️❤️☀️💐💐😘

  3. Lianne
    Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your beautiful family. You are a peaceful warrior, and more powerful than you can imagine… This cancer is already delt with, no longer part of you… envelope yourself in the feeling of certainty. You are so loved by so many and we are all there fighting this fight right along side you. Breathe and feel the love. Thank you for being courageous enough to be vulnerable and tell your journey exactly as it is. It takes profound strength to be honest and real, and gives others the permission to do the same. Sending so much love and light! Arms around you

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    Suzzanne Roughley Lots of love Lianne xxxx You are truly an inspiration to me. Extraordinary woman seems an understatement . Stay strong like you have been beautiful lady – you are much loved. xx
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    Lianne Cawood Such lovely words Suzzanne. Thanks you ❤️
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    Jo Sutton Hugs xx Thinking of you
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️ thank you xxx
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    Colin Templeton Chin up
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    Samantha Yates Schroeder 🙏 😘😘😘
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Lisa Fourie Thinking of you ❤️
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Janine Allem I am sitting with you again, hope it’s okay to chat now. ❤️
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    Lianne Cawood Always janineallem ❤️
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    Ahimsamurti Nicole Kretzschmar Sending you a little more courage and strength xxx
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    Lianne Cawood Xxxxxxx
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    Dave De Vos Hi Lianne. Sending Lots of love and strength to you. X
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    Lianne Cawood Hi Dave. Thanks means the world and much love to you xx
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    Claire Peters 😘💗
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    Lianne Cawood 😘
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    Chiquita King 💗 cocoon away my forever friend. One day at time. And the only thing that does not change is the fact that you are loved over countable.
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · March 25 at 4:35pm
    Lianne Cawood Love you ❤️
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    Susie Pitts This sounds positive – your doctor is quietly confident. Sending love, your courage is huge Lianne. Xxx
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · March 25 at 4:49pm
    Lianne Cawood Thanks you. I’m quietly confident too, my courage just wavered a little yesterday 😏😘
    Like · Reply · March 26 at 10:37am

    Trudy Miller Sending you love xxx
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · March 25 at 4:57pm
    Lianne Cawood Xxxx
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    Lynn Loopuyt Barker Just love ❤️
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · March 25 at 5:06pm
    Lianne Cawood It’s everything ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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    Heather McNeice I get your frustration and your wish to pin this down. Sending you courage and love for the coming days and may next week bring positive news xx
    Unlike · Reply · 2 · March 25 at 5:23pm
    Lianne Cawood Thank you H. Thanks for hearing me xxxxxx
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    Gillian Freimond Rightford It’s a horrible word that invasive. Sending lots of love to your cocoon.
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · March 25 at 5:51pm
    Lianne Cawood I feel it Gill. Thank you ❤️
    Like · Reply · 1 · March 26 at 11:12am

    Kerry Solomon I can’t imagine how difficult and frustrating the uncertainty and waiting must be. Thinking of you beautiful Lianne. xxxx
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · March 25 at 6:47pm
    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Owen Leed Love love love
    Like · Reply · March 25 at 7:26pm
    Lianne Cawood That’s all there is xxxx
    Like · Reply · 1 · March 26 at 11:12am

    Anna Macklin Cocooning … A great option on a shite day . 🙏🏻😘 you are wonderful 💕💕
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · March 25 at 9:55pm
    Lianne Cawood 😘
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    Janine Hunter To tomorrow ❤️
    Unlike · Reply · 1 · March 26 at 12:48am
    Lianne Cawood And it is a much better day .❤️
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    Lesley Oliver Lotsa love you, now, tomorrow and always xx
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    Lianne Cawood ❤️
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    Louise Fletcher Beautiful butterflys emerge from cacoons x
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    Kath Anderson Thinking of you all the time. You’re incredibly brave. X X X
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    Colleen Loopuyt Our thoughts and prayers for good news
    Like · Reply · March 28 at 6:19am
    Lianne Cawood

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