So we all know life sucks from time to time. And we all know to be grateful for the non sucky moments because they too will pass. As will the sucky ones. I keep telling myself this as I plan my next months. Yup I am having chemo. Again. A different chemo to the one I had before but chemo. And yes I will lose my hair, and potentially my nails, and my eyebrows and eyelashes and get mouth ulcers and vomit and rashes and nausea and extreme fatigue and neuropathy and generally hate the world. And it all fucking sucks. But I am resilient. I am a warrior woman. And I knew it was coming. I knew it the minute I read that awful word invasive on my pathology report. I knew that a systemic response would be needed. Its the medical consensus of many learned oncologists and pathologists and surgeons and who am I to argue? Anyway I know too much. I know the consequence of winning that argument but losing in the long run. And that’s not an option. Chemo sucks but having cancer sucks a whole lot more. So I am at peace with relinquishing control (okay a bit) and being guided by those reknowned for being cautious, sensible and non aggressive in their approach. And deep deep down I know I’ll sleep better knowing we are doing what we can.

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  1. Life does SUCK at times (funny how that rhymes with FUCK 😛 ) – but the one consolation is that you have been there, done that – AND bought and sold the FUCK IT T-SHIRT once before! You know it’s going to be KUK but you also know that when all is done and dusted – Your hair will grow back and so too your eyelashes and fingernails – and through it all YOU ARE STILL THIS VISION OF GORGEOUSNESS (INSIDE AND OUT), and NOTHING AND NO ONE can dim your INCREDIBLE light! Love and admire you …… YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL! <3  ps – You are so coming to visit me when your treatment is over! :)  The champagne is on ice and waiting for you! All my love always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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    Owen Leed Hug
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    Samantha Yates Schroeder 😘
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    Theresa Milne Aw that’s not something I would look forward to either. Sorry 😢. Will be holding breath with you until this rough patch has passed. Important to keep in mind that it will pass. A regular supply of ginger will be needed to help ease the side effects Much love 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌻🌻🌻🌻❤
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    Lynn Loopuyt Barker ❤️
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    Lynn Loopuyt Barker 👑❤️
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    Michelle Gilder That really sux💩
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    Jennifer Montgomery Spotts XOXO to you. And I’m thinking of a lot of Afrikaans curse words that I learned but can’t spell…because it does suck. In a huge way. But there is a lot of love for you here in the US that we are sending to you…
    Like · Reply · April 22 at 2:57pm

    Vanessa Gibson Sucky indeed. Thinking of you though. 🌺
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    Gillian Freimond Rightford Sorry. That’s really not a whole lot of fun. But warrior women need weapons and I’m glad they’re giving you potent ones.
    Like · Reply · April 22 at 3:02pm

    Kirsten Mason Lots of love 😘😘😘😘
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    Ilona Schreuder Sending you all my love and then some more😘😘
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    Sameeha Muthen Hugs ❤
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    Carolien Bosman ❤️ love you
    Like · Reply · April 22 at 3:36pm

    Gillian Smith No words…but all my love.
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    Gillian Leishman 🌷❤️xxoo
    Like · Reply · April 22 at 4:06pm

    Katie Blake So sad when I read this. You are a warrior and I become stronger by reading your posts.
    Like · Reply · April 22 at 4:07pm

    Joanne Warren Marsden Sending love and positive healing vibes. ❤
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    Janine Daniels Ok angel. You do what you have to do. We’ll all be here to love and support and hold you. We’ll also sleep better knowing that your warrior energy has a potent medical ally. Remember … one step at a time. ❤️❤️ forever xxxx
    Like · Reply · 1 · April 22 at 4:21pm

    Toni Joyce Love love love . Let yr positive spirit pull you through. Xx
    Like · Reply · April 22 at 4:53pm

    Leoni Hattingh I send you love and embraces. And thank God for your sensibility! heart emoticon
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    Kirsten Kairuz You are amazing xx And this cancer will not win.
    Like · Reply · April 22 at 7:10pm

    Colin Templeton I’m with you cancer f/n sucks , hang in there you warrior . 💕
    Like · Reply · April 22 at 7:29pm

    Lisa Fourie Oh sweets – we’re here for you xo
    Like · Reply · April 22 at 8:23pm

    Megan Clausen Oh darling Linky. You will overcome this. And beat this. And be beautiful even without your hair and nails. But fuck it. It does suck. Holding you in my heart and thoughts, beautiful brave girl 💛
    Like · Reply · April 23 at 2:57am

    Janine Hunter Bless you. Sending love warrior lady xx
    Like · Reply · April 23 at 5:24am

    Kath Anderson ‘Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will’ (Ghandi) And you sure have that. 🐲
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