finally a lesson learnt

Five years is a long time. Five years is a great time to be cancer free but not so sure if it’s a great time to have been away from where I come from. Congratulations have been offered and accepted as my family and friends all knew I was only staying for two years. OK, so they and I knew I would stay longer but happily went along with my self delusion because they all knew it was what I needed. It’s not a great time, because it is a long time and so much and so many people have changed. The gap we seem to have left for some has diminished. And that was inevitable but also sad. But actually it is also great. Because it has helped me on my journey. To truly understand impermanence. And attachment.  I have definitely learnt the lesson I have oft referred to in my musings, the gift I have finally accepted. The acceptance of change. Which often is loss. I think after 5 years you get a real understanding of what mattered, what matters, of who matters and of whom you matter to. And that it’s all good. I can now smile at this journey, from the absurdity of the first visit home to the authenticity of this visit five years later. Five years is a long time to be away from where I come from, but a great time to grow.

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4 thoughts on “finally a lesson learnt

  1. Lianne we never lose where we come from. But our responses to what happened and what happens on the journey, help us transcend and transform into the work of love that is our redemption and our evolution. Love and more love.

  2. From facebook

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    Yvette Puchert Miss you already sista!!
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    Sam Vogel Goosebumps….brilliant, moving prose and a great waypoint Lianne.
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    Janine Daniels I get you babe x
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  3. Hi Lianne! I just got reading through a few of your posts and I had a quick question. I am involved in the cancer community and was hoping you could email me back when you get the chance. Thanks! – emilywalsh688@gmail(dot)com.

    Emmy

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