anti?

I thought quite seriously about getting a tattoo at one point. To celebrate life. A flower chain on my wrist that I would add to every year since I finished treatment. I thought about it seriously for a minute. Naah. One, tattoos are not for me. And two, I was so determined not to be defined by this, not to be Lianne Cawood, cancer survivor. And that tattoo would help me do that. And I do so like to define myself in concrete ways. Which is not a good thing. And anyway, it’s there whether I like it or not. The cancer survivor thing.  But it’s only a little part of me. You see, yesterday was not only our anniversary it was also the anniversary of my mastectomy. 5 year anniversary. And that’s the reason I am so glad I never got that tattoo, because that is all that would matter. Every day. But yesterday we mattered, not it. Now I love the sudden reminder, the wow can you believe it was 5 years ago feeling. That was then, this is now. I’m writing about it because it was a wow moment and I love that, and hopefully someone will get hope from our ability to smile now. And also because I realised I haven’t quite put this tattoo thing to bed yet.

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3 thoughts on “anti?

    • Sooo, when and where are we getting our tattoo’s?? I know what I’m getting and where. Just not if or when. Don’t care about being old and wrinkly, I’ll never wear twin set and pearls will still be wearing jeans and converse and anyway, love to tell my grandkids …. so???????

      • No ifs for me, wanted to do it for the longest time. Don’t know the what and where so thats holding up the when a bit. x

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