I’m not good at being a statistic. As in … another woman trying to find herself by sharing her musings on a blog. But realising that’s not the statistic I hate being, it’s actually one of my own doing, that of another person fearful of starting something in case they don’t do it well. I’m 45 and realised I’m finally accepting I’m good enough. And am happy to be just like all those others grateful for life by sharing an image a day of something I am grateful for. It’s a wonderful way of focussing your energies. It is wonderful to realise how limiting it is to only share one thing. Just today I realised how good I am at talking and not so much at listening. How awful. I was still for a bit. The recurring sound in my ears was like a caress from the wind. just listen just listen just listen. I keep telling mysellf tomorrow will be better, wait until you have something to share, who are you and who would want to read you. Today I just listened and stopped telling myself why not. I had already missed the boat in terms of order, as in starting on the first of the year and ending 365 days later. I love order. Or symmetry. And control. And thats enough to stop me. But today, for a moment I just let go and embraced that now is as good as any a time. Right now I am good enough. And right now is good enough. So January 16 2012 is my new day.