pie

Who knew my new rallying cry, tits up, would actually work. It seems I am blessed with elastic skin with strong contraction abilities. It is hard to fathom how one month post surgery my left dangly removed implant stretch skin thing has contracted back incredibly. The skin contracts back if there is nothin left to stretch it. Some a lot, some not at all. Mine has. I knew about contraction but seriously. Not much can blow me away but this has. The looks of incredulity on my sister and niece’s faces when I showed them were priceless. Summed up how I felt. They saw me a month ago. And were devastated for me. Fuck me the body is an incredible thing. This time I am happy once again to be unusual. I saw my stylish Canadian plastic surgeon yesterday again. And ate humble pie. He knew. Or in my defence he Β hoped. And he was so brilliant with me. He also knew me losing it was also about so much more than how awful I looked. It was needed. It was about time and it was cathartic. Fuck cancer sucks. Look my man made breasts are in no way beautiful but they are more symmetrical. (As my baby daughter taught me re my eyebrows and I wish more knew this, they are sisters not twins) And thats all I wanted. And them to look breast like. And no not in a bra, but in real life. The real life I see reflected back at me in the mirror. Β So more surgery still needed to make a nipple, try fill in some dents, lipectomy under my arm where things have shifted as they shouldn’t and then fuck please we can be done.

Although it never is. Kate had dinner with her friends last night and beautifully they expressed concern over me and does this now mean, no more breast tissue, no more cancer? Unfortunately no. As I’ve bleated on previously, I am the one percent, my cancer came back where there was no breast tissue, where I had had a full mastectomy. So there is no guarantee of anything. I will be pricked and prodded and have to be vigilant with every bump and any fatigue, weight loss, aches and pains. But I plan to do it as I have to date, without fear. It truly is what it is. I will do what I can and what I must. As must we all. Tits up and onwards.

3 thoughts on “pie

  1. From facebook

    Tamara Duran
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    Ilona Schreuder I salute you my friend πŸ‘πŸ»

    Cathy Raggett
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    Lynn Loopuyt Barker Yes β™‘

    Kath Anderson You blow me away – every single time.πŸ–€πŸ–€ You are invincible! πŸ–€πŸ–€πŸ–€

    Kirsten Kairuz β€οΈπŸ–€πŸ–€πŸ–€πŸ–€πŸ–€

    Sandi Unite You go girl! πŸ’–πŸ’–

    Deborah MacCourt Roberts
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    Gillian Freimond Rightford That’s brilliant news. A step closer. Tits up indeed!

    Shea Albert As we must my magnificent Lianne xxxx

    Owen Leed Tits up!!

    Gaye Cawood Brave and courageous ! X

    Gillian Smith So much love and respect for you. XxπŸ–€

    Janine Hunter Awesome Lianne! Tits up indeed!! πŸ’•

    Lesley Oliver So good Li πŸ’•

    Laura Malan You are one of a kind Lianne – ABF (Absolutely Bloody Fabulous) πŸ™‚

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